Category: Blog

World Mental Health Day

On World Mental Health Day, I am grateful to be home (day off from the day job). I’m spending much of the day on art (above are my most recent works-in-progress) as well as making sure I head outdoors later this afternoon to dig up what’s left of the garden. **Update** Dug up part of […]

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A quick update

It’s been a few weeks. Things have been a bit crazy, so been focusing on getting through the muck, which means I haven’t been writing, nor even doing much art. My attempt to taper off the anti-depressants flopped, but I’m now okay with this (I wasn’t at first – I felt like a huge failure). […]

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First Two Weeks Tapering Off Antidepressants

I officially began my lower dose of Effexor XR July 23, from 150 mg to 112.5 mg (37.5 mg is the smallest capsule size). Overall withdrawal has been non-severe, which is good. First few days I did have severe tension headaches, but ibuprofen took care of that. However, I did have a couple of weird […]

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#FirstWorldProblems, Meet Gratitude

I love this cartoon:   That poor individual on the right, that’s me. Yes, mindfulness and meditation has helped calm me a great deal, but I would be lying if I said I was 100% Zen 100% of the time. Boy, I would love to be calm and in the moment all the time. I’m […]

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Using art to escape life

Last post I talked about my desire to taper off Effexor after being on it for eleven years. Another health concern on my radar is recent the report of an increased risk of breast cancer in correlation to alcohol consumption. I already have an increased risk of breast cancer from family history (my mother and […]

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Week of 1 May 2017 – Journal

Not much of a witty title, but honestly tired of trying to come up with a witty and catchy title for my journal entries. So, will just be dating them from now on. Lazy? Maybe. Do I care? No. I’ve come to the conclusion that the majority of my journal writing will actually need to […]

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Rain & my mind

Give me any rainy day and I will give you nothing in return. I do manage to get out of bed, and if I happen to be off from the day job, I will get a workout in first thing in the morning. But anything else – zippy. My chronic depression is kept in check, […]

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One step at a time

I have to start writing here at work because the downtime will otherwise drive me crazy. It IS what drives me crazy most about this job. The perfect scenario would be for me to be able to go home once I complete whatever needs to be done for the day, or only work 6 am […]

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It is what it is

As I was getting ready to take a shower yesterday evening, I was thinking about life. A thought came to me: “I am 45 years old. I have, if I’m fortunate, another 45-50 or more years left on this planet.” And in that moment, I felt so small, so insignificant. And a bit scared. Just […]

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Reclaiming serenity

Been MIA these past couple of weeks because my mind was in a bad place. One thing I strive not to do here is do a whole lot of complaining/whining. While this is my online journal, it’s drag even for me to write when I’m in that frame of mind, let alone for anyone to […]

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